On April 30, 2019, one of the most unexpected twists happened in my life, I was let go from a company that I considered to be my home. D.R.E.A.M. was something I started back in December of 2017 but it was not my full-time focus. I was able to balance a full-time job, parenthood, and a cause that I believed in more than anything else. One week ago, one of the biggest parts of my life was taken from me and I haven't been able to shake it.
With respect to the company, I will not share many sensitive details but the way I was let go was despicable. As an employee (or "partner"/"owner" as I was called), I worked from home as the home base of the company was in another country. For the last 3 years, I took a gaming company from obscurity to fame. We were such a famous company that our product was featured in 2018's YouTube Rewind because of our partnership with a very famous YouTube personality. There are celebrities and influencers spanning from music, television, pro wrestling, athletics, and of course, gaming that are using our chairs exclusively in all of their content. This only happened because of my diligence.
Rather than be given notice via a phone call, I was told I was let go by having my e-mail address taken offline which caused me to ask why and I was told, "because we're letting you go". It stung. It hurt. I know the company has had a tough time lately but to spare the details for sensitivity purposes I worked my ass off to fix everything in the shadows. I was barely given any attention in the last few months. Ideas were ignored. Messages were not responded to. The love and care that was given to me from the first year diminished like ash from a burning fire.
Now I'm broken and trying to pick up the pieces.
In July I will not only turn 30 but I will also have my second child. With all the uncertainty in my life, I am here trying to figure out how I am going to make ends meet while still fighting for everything D.R.E.A.M. stands for. No matter what decision I make about my future I know one thing is certain, I wasn't put on this earth to sell meaningless products. I wasn't put on this earth to have my ideas and feelings ignored. I damn sure was not put on this earth to waste my talents by being a punching bag for a company that can't properly budget their finances.
I was put on this earth to make it a better and happier place. That is why I will never give up on D.R.E.A.M. no matter what it takes. I want to grow this beyond my wildest dreams and I am going to do just that.
However, this is my bottom, and I need to find my way out of this. I'm not sure how I am going to do it but I am going to pull every last bit of energy in my soul to climb out of this and come out stronger. There is no one stronger in this world than a desperate person fighting for others and that is what I have become. I promise to make it happen. I promise to make this dream a reality for myself while still being able to keep my life and the ones around me afloat.
In the coming weeks, I will hopefully have some clarity on what my future holds. Your feedback and love this week during this tumultuous time is what keeps me going. I can't believe that this has taken off to the point that I have not only impacted thousands of lives, but it's made my life more meaningful too.
I owe it to you all, my son, my wife, my future son, my family, my friends, and all the people who've ever believed in me to finally grab the brass ring and make an impact in this world like no one has seen before.
My mental health is not my weakness, it is my strength and I am going to do everything I can to use my superpowers of depression and anxiety to turn this around.
I love every single one of you who has supported D.R.E.A.M. by buying our gear, retweeting the tweets, liking the Facebook, messaging us feedback, etc. As much as you all think I've helped you in your struggle, you have helped the same amount every time you support.
Until next time. Never stop dreaming.